just one more day…

i don’t know what it is, i don’t why it is but whenever i’m feeling just that slightest bit out of ordinary socks i tell myself “just one more day”. till what i don’t know but i just know it’s one more day  and i keep telling myself that til alas i no longer feel an emptiness or sadness and go about my bit in the world.

Today however is one of those days when i feel “just one more day”….. i feel as if my life is a big countdown to a suprise that never comes. a book with an enourmous introduction but not enough space for the climax. a midday movie with bad ratings from the west magazine editor. my life is merry-go-round for little kids but instead fat old people sit on it and the horses dont ride straight no-more. sigh….what more is there to say?

sadness is a draining feeling, but anticipating it is worse. knowing i will cry. knowing i will feel empty and knowing i can’t do much about it has just about eaten much of my insides. how to describe this feeling i do not know. sleep is my only remedy for now.

so as i sit here, on this squeaking chair, in this dark room, with nothing but a glowing computer screen in front of me , knowing this is terribly bad for my eyes, i gaze out into the dark night and hope for a better tommorrow, because tommorrow is just one more day away… 

love anushka xoxox

~ by ilovepaperclips on December 1, 2006.

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3 Responses to “just one more day…”

  1. hey :D trust me I know the feeling.. but sometimes its the opposite and you like yay one more day.. and then nothing happens and your like hmm i have no idea what i was looking forward to but it never happened. Oh well trust me one day something great will happen and you will be wishing that time will go slower… and that one more day thing will never have to be thought. I just remembered i have to call you.. i do hope your home lol

    ttyl cheer up emo kid and dont be so emo :P

    luv ya heaps Courtz
    aka Chutney hahaha

    Courtney said this on December 2, 2006 at 10:51 am

  2. urgh! don’t ever call me an emo kid EVER again!

    ilovepaperclips said this on December 3, 2006 at 8:50 am

  3. You know one day you’ll be old and creaky and wrinkly!!! and then you’ll say “Gee, Clarence, I wish I were back in the day when I could walk and my knee replacements didn’t rub together and create friction” (you have to imagine that in a croaky old-lady voice- and I don’t know who Clarence is)…
    So enjoy this day. Pretend you’ll never remember anything you did today so you get to act like an idiot. :) mwah.
    (emo)

    happychick said this on December 4, 2006 at 8:52 am

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